12.12.06

I guess i ought to explain what the numbers mean, 12.12.06, 12th of december 2006. I'm getting married on that day. Yes, its true and there she is, my angel. Friends have asked, 'are you sure?' and 'aren't you scared?' To say i'm not scared would be a blatant lie, the truth is I am but having faith is something so strong that many fail to acknowledge. I've done enough stupid, illogical and regretful stuff, and it came upon me one day. 'Its time'

(it wasn't easy)

But she was committed as her eyes were sweet. She wasn't the feminine image of myself but the masculine I never had. A certain completeness, complimenting, like cheese and biscuits, champagne and caviar, bees and honey, houseflies and rubbish. (you get the idea)

Know how some people say,

"The person I marry is not who i can live with but who i can't live without" ("utter bullocks")

Seriously, where did this come from. 'Dummies Guide to Crooning Women' ?? Ya, it all sounds nice and sweet and all that, but how true is it? More conservative cultures still have arranged marriages, and i'm not talking only about the Chinese and Indians, in these cases people marry first fall in love later.

Alright, my point is it simply doesn't exist. Marriage is a sacred union of two souls, tied together under oath and holy matrimony. The sad bit is that today, marriages are overly commercialised. I know of some who plan their wedding dinners as a business opportunity. Others for a house, some for the government incentives, and the best i've known, to stay out from army at nights. I mean...the abuse...its mindboggling.

And me? I just felt it was time. It did come quite suddenly, but not without reason. How do i explain this. You know the feeling that you have with that friend that you're always hanging out with, the one whom you wish you hadn't made some wrong turn back then and ended up in the 'friendzone'. Ok register that feeling, now erase the 'friendzone' and amplify that a little. That's what i have with her. Love based on the foundations of compassion and friendship. (kinda fairytale, i know...)

Yes, finding the right one is not easy, characters must match and all that. But stop...ponder with me, ask yourself, "who is the right one?" "is there an example or a reference?"

There probably is, and that person is or was the one who gave you the feeling i'm having. Somehow it went sour and things just didn't work out right? We always say that things don't work out, but it only happens because we as an individual allowed it to manifest. I was once like that, but when she entered my life, I did what needed to be done, making it work. The 'right one' is who we make him/her to be, it is a name not a person, a position to be filled, a void only left empty because you choose to let it be. Never was it a 'someone' or a 'who', it has always been a 'when?'

Tiffany

the windows to her heart, like diamonds in the dark
a whisper in her ear, the words she needs to hear

like winds of paradise, she came into my life
a whisper in her ear, my love

right before my eyes, she came into my life,
she's the one for me,
my tiffany my baby

and i will never lie, with her i'll never cry
she's the one for me
my tiffany my baby
my love

if i could turn back time, i'd still will make you mine
a whisper in her ear, just to have her near

when you held my hand, no words could comprehend
a whisper in her ear, my love

right before my eyes, she came into my life,
she's the one for me,
my tiffany my baby

and i will never lie, with her i'll never cry
she's the one for me
my tiffany my baby
my love

Epilogue

The history of free men is never written by chance but by choice, their choice.
When your today becomes your yesterday,
you will look back and realise that it was a result of your choice..

-Dad